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[30 Apr 2009|07:25pm] |
LAVENDER.
It feels wrong being here without everyone else, doesn't it? Even the people we don't like. I suppose it's to benefit everyone, but being away from it only makes me think about it more. At least you're here with me. I'm not entirely sure what I would do without you being my best friend. I can't always share clothing with my little sister, you know what I mean?
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[30 Apr 2009|07:04pm] |
BIANCA AND SASHA.
I miss the Gryffindor common room and I miss you. It wasn't the same without Hermione, and now, my goodness, it's even worse! You two miss me, too, right? After we grow up even more and everything, we should plan a magnificent sleepover. Michael can come, if you like.
And I'm sorry.
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[25 Apr 2009|01:08pm] |
PRIVATE.Lavender and I are actually enjoying ourselves in the Room of Requirement. I feel very, very safe with Neville, Seamus, Terry and Michael, and I'm relieved Neville isn't in here by himself anymore. Michael seems to be recovering, and it's naturally much nicer here than it is out there. I miss my little sister. I kind of feel like I should be out there with her, by her side like I usually am, but I suppose the Carrows can't kill me if they can't find me. Perhaps I will see Mama and Papa again after all.
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[20 Apr 2009|08:52pm] |
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I confess! I don't agree with how this school is being run. The Carrows are absolutely barbaric and I no longer care to do what they tell me. I'm leaving, too, and I'm not looking back!
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[19 Apr 2009|01:14am] |
PRIVATE.
How many weeks do I have left on this earth?
I feel like I've lost count.
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| 12 April 1998. |
[12 Apr 2009|06:06pm] |
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Happy Easter! Or, you know, as happy as it can be. I'm wearing very bright and festive colours -- they match the flowers that grow outside the castle. I hope everyone is enjoying their day. It is a beautiful day, all things considered.
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[12 Apr 2009|12:14am] |
PRIVATE.The Carrows captured Megan Jones, according to what everyone's saying. On top of that, Seamus is very bruised and Terry has a broken arm.
It feels a lot more drafty than it did before in this castle, despite the time of the year. Normally, I'd crawl into Lavender's bed uninvited, but that was when we didn't have to worry about people getting hurt and tortured by a pair of demonic professors. I haven't slept soundly since I've been back, and I certainly won't sleep tonight. Seamus will recover, of course. He's strong, although apparently Millicent Bulstrode was a bit stronger.
I still cannot believe I'm actually back at school. How did any of us board that train knowing what we'd be facing? It's strange how there wasn't much of a fuss made, and how it seemed like we were kicking and screaming to go back instead of the opposite. Well, I wish I was still at home with Mama and Papa, genuinely happy for once and not thinking about anything but the present. It was difficult keeping my mouth shut about everything we've been going through, but I managed it. I only shared what was needed. Selfishly, I wanted to tell Mama that there's a chance I won't be returning to her when it's time to, but she doesn't need to know about that. If it happens, she'll find out. Right? I wish I could start a new life, filled with happiness and perhaps a marriage or two; this life is too stressful. I am starting to lose hope -- when you think about it, Harry couldn't even handle a simple date. How is he going to save the world?
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| 24 March 1998. |
[24 Mar 2009|06:06pm] |
MICHAEL AND PADMA.
I think it's time we explained Bianca to everyone. Do you think they would understand?
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| 20 March 1998. |
[20 Mar 2009|02:11am] |
PRIVATE.
Is our hard work really getting us anywhere? I've seen very little turnaround, and things are getting worse by the millisecond! I thought my classmates would have had enough by now, but many still performed the Killing Curse. I'm happy to have Morag and Megan included in everything now, but I wonder if they'll only end up like I'm supposed to at the end of the school year. People say they won't do it because my blood is pure, but I have a feeling that hasn't stopped them in the past. I don't regret anything I've done, but I also don't want to die. And even if it doesn't seem likely, that won't stop me from thinking about it. I want to be married before I die. Married. I want to live in a house with a yard and a fence. That isn't too much to ask, right? No! I don't think it is.
I think I've said this before, but Padma should have been the Gryffindor. She's much more braver than I. All I want to do is sit in my four-poster with Lavender.
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| 3 March 1998. |
[03 Mar 2009|01:38am] |
DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY.
I don't think we should give in.
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| 27 February 1998, a little while after midnight. |
[27 Feb 2009|02:19am] |
DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY.
Ginny didn't come back to the Gryffindor common room after dinner. She was supposed to meet up with Lavender earlier tonight, and we haven't seen her at all. I mean.
For Merlin's sake --
should someone go look for her? I'm not going to sleep.
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| 25 February 1998. |
[25 Feb 2009|11:31pm] |
BIANCA.
Bianca?
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| 18 February 1998. |
[18 Feb 2009|02:45am] |
BIANCA.
So.
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| 17 February 1998. |
[17 Feb 2009|05:38pm] |
PADMA.A lot of us were given detention for refusing to participate in class. Anthony and Zacharias are the only ones in Dumbledore's Army who didn't refuse. I'm happy people are standing up against them -- I think that means we're making a difference. However, I don't know what that will mean for you, and I want you to be fully aware of what's happening.
I'm going to tell you that not only did I refuse, but I kind of challenged our lovely professor. I was upset. And. Well. And Terry -- he actually turned the tables and used the curse on him. You should understand why I don't think this will turn out too good.
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[12 Feb 2009|06:29pm] |
PRIVATE.
It felt so good to see so many people refusing to use that awful spell! I was quite honestly expecting most to give in. Next time, more people will refuse, and more people will stand up against them, which is precisely how things should be.
I hope they keep it up. You can't get anywhere without persistence, and no matter where we end up, we'll have a clear conscious. That's the important thing.
I wish I could be with my sister -- I know this will all work out in the end. It has to.
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[04 Feb 2009|12:02am] |
WARDED TO DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY.
No.
I'm sorry, but there's a definitive point where a line has to be drawn. I'm sure we were all aware of what was coming, but I'm not doing this! I'm not. They can't make me. I'm not torturing people. None of us should do this, in fact. I'm going to refuse to do it instead of further compromising the things I believe in. And I don't care if they torture me instead.
I've had enough of this complete nonsense.
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[31 Jan 2009|12:49am] |
WARDED TO PADMA AND LAVENDER.
This is getting tiring. And stressful. And what happened to Ginny and Terry?
It's funny, because when we were little, we were both troublemakers, and we were proud of being that way. I miss being little, but I guess trying to wish this away won't really do anything except make me even more depressed. There is some enjoyment to be had in vexing the Carrows, but I have to wonder how far I'll be able to take this. I'm sure before long, they'll stop handing out detentions in the dungeons. Bianca wrote something interesting to me tonight, and I think I now know for certain that she isn't what the Inquisitorial Squad paints her to be. She has too much of a heart.
Theodore is a bastard, but it's strange how he wasn't able to perform the curse on me like he was instructed to. I'm relieved that most people had trouble with it. It wouldn't sit well with me if everyone was capable of making people do such horrid things. Fingernails? I mean, really. It's sick. There's no other way to describe it! We're basically being turned into criminals.
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[31 Jan 2009|12:39am] |
DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY.
Ginny's missing. Neville, Jack and I went searching for her, and they were both caught in the process. I managed to make it back to the common room safely, but I'm worried! At most, they'd be given detention. Right? Jack doesn't ne Has anyone heard from Ginny?
Anyway, just letting everyone know what happened.
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| 30 January 1998. |
[30 Jan 2009|07:33pm] |
I hate them. I hate them. I hate them.
They're NOT going to get away with this.
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